Our death-fearing grip has a stranglehold on our Inherent Wondrous Worth. Our tight self-embrace with our story, our image, our self-concern, and all of our conscious and unconscious mechanisms of control, deny us the tacit enjoyment and expression of our own unconditional worth. It robs us of our beauty, dignity, mystery, joy, wonder, and loving companionship with Life and all.
My time with you, your time with me, your time with each other, and our time in human existence is ultimately and always—if we will move out of our own way—a Mysterious Moment of unreasonable Wonder in the eternal stream of time and space. That is what Wonder is; that is what Amazement is; an uncontrived, sudden awakening from spiritual concussion that lifts us out of the lazy complacency of our self-induced, spiritually numbing seclusion from Life when lived within the familiar patterns of knowing.
We are not a “knowing”; we are not any solid, final, known conclusion. The feeling Realisation of our Inherent Nature, of our Unconditional Wonder, and of our beyond-all-reason Existence—the feeling realisation of our undefined and boundless entanglement-oneness in the endlessly moving, bright web of Life—is the free, enlightened disposition of our bodily existence, as it is of all existence. The Native Ground of all, the Unconditioned Spirit—the very root causation, endless creativity, and expression of all existence—is our Life-Given Human Nature. We are, as all manifest conditions are, an ultimately unexplainable, uncontainable, unbounded Force of Nature.
What word will you attach to Your Self? What description, by means of our self-defining, limiting cage of words, will you attach yourself to as if you are a self-defined entity in the ever-changing stream of the spontaneously wondrous, creative Force of Life? Inherently, we are a not-knowing, undirected, divinely and chaotically organised Force of Nature that exists only for and in the Will of Nature. For what purpose and where it is all going, we have no idea at all—only conjecture, speculation, and hopeful thinking, which we have self-deceptively labelled as knowing.
Information does not give us a Wisdom Quality of inner Life, and we are now entirely in the information mode—the artificial intelligence mode. While intellectual knowledge is relatively easily obtained, not so emotional intelligence, which requires us to feel beyond ourselves. Intellectual knowledge and private, no-effort, push-button access to information will not dispel us of our fear, greed, self-concern, and emotional stiffness. In fact, when information is not submitted to or governed by the prior Wisdom Intelligence of our interconnectedness and dependence in and with the Spiritual Unity of All (our collective Life-Identity), it tends to be used for our own egoic desire to gain dominance over the Way of Life in favour of the way we humans want Life to be.
This self-appointed, fatuous sense of knowing is the suppression of our humour, joy, and unreasonable Wonderment, and it is the generator of our judgements. To form judgements of others or of ourselves—to define into categories, labels, and roles—is the extension of our own limiting self-confinement. The very thing we want out of, we impose on others. The evidence is abundantly clear: for all the intellectual knowledge we have acquired, it has never broken us out of the spell of our own self-image, of our ethnocentrism, out of our overall chronic, nature-destroying anthropocentrism. Love is the Evolutionary Force, not mere knowledge. Real Knowledge is knowing that Love is the Primary Evolutionary Force of a Life-time.
The urge, the compulsion, to make judgments of others is the expression of our own frustration. It is the frustration and resentment of our own self-imposed, limited identification, along with our still-unaccepted confrontation with our own egoic defeat to control Life and others. And yet, we keep trying.
Our death-fearing grip has a stranglehold on our Inherent Wondrous Worth. Our tight self-embrace with our story, our image, our self-concern, and all of our conscious and unconscious mechanisms of control, deny us the tacit enjoyment and expression of our own unconditional worth. It robs us of our beauty, dignity, mystery, joy, wonder, and loving companionship with Life and all.
Our constant desire to control that which we cannot control is a thought, an action, and a conversation fermented in our preferred, comforting methods of victimhood. Each thought and action of judgement toward another is an aggressive energy. No matter what words we use to camouflage it, the energy transmitted is a dispositional aggressive energy—one that makes any of us recoil.
Our death-fearing grip extends its restrictive, limited reach in all manner of control mechanisms over others and nature. I suggest that we have used information and mere intellectual knowing in service of this pursuit; a pursuit that ultimately results in resentment, including towards our own impending egoic defeat: physical death.
I am not suggesting that we abandon control; it is a natural inclination when one is lost—lost in a crowd, in a forest, in any foreign environment. However, using mechanisms of control with each other, within our relationships, is the symptom of our own Existential loss. The loss of our Inherent Being Self is the loss of our Inherent Life-Bestowed Worth, of our Amazement, Gratitude and Love for the Unconditioned Being we are. Therefore, I suggest that in this case we are missing a vital nugget of essential Emotional Information.
It is not our fault. We were not born deficient. We were not born less than anyone or anything else, nor were we born outside the Laws of Nature. In fact, we are a Gift from Nature, of Nature. However, through all forms of conditioning in our childhood, we learned to survive by holding onto our-self; we began constructing a self that could deal with the aggressive, foreign colonisation of our Life Essence, of our Soul, of our Radiant Innocent Consciousness—which already held within it all the information we would ever need to evolve us as Human. Our Inherent, Life-Giving Life-Force, which is our Enlightenment and our Joy, became suppressed under the weight of conditional knowing, conditional comparing, conditional worth, under the weight of conditional love.
Oh yes, conditional knowledge; which now, in this age of artificial intelligence (well, that says it all), we do not have to work for. We do not have to feel beyond ourselves for it, or ultimately, become Love for the Gift of our Life. That is Gratitude.
The Spirit of the bodily Being, which thrives by giving of Its Self, becomes suppressed beneath the construct of a self—a self we put together, and then spend a lifetime defending.
Through the aggressive force and domination of this conditioning, we cut ourselves off from our own Life-Given Impulses; from the very impulses we need to feel into and beyond all conditions to meet our Very Self. In this way, we quite naturally become scared, confused, fearful, and lost. We resort to control mechanisms because we have already suppressed the very bodily impulses we need to feel into and beyond conditions—into That which Lives us, Inspires us, Encourages us, Grows us, and Evolves us continually beyond any fixed point of our individual self, into That which finally dissolves its own form.
We mistake our own loss for something we need outside of our self—something we must go on a long, circuitous search for somewhere else. We mistake our own Soul’s existential longing to whole-bodily envelope us, for something we need from someone else. This is not to say that a close embrace with another human is not a natural human want or need. In fact, it is a fundamental requirement for our whole bodily health. The point is, is it a giving or a taking? In fact, in our search, we do not listen deeply enough for the Soul’s Unconditioned Embrace that makes Unconditioned Love possible—the Real Substance, Vigour, and Life-Diversity Growth of Human Relationships.
We poets, mystics, energy artists, and unconventional conversationalists have always been trying to impart, to vocalise, to give form to our deepest human longing through every dynamic of human interaction and social interplay. There is no intellectual knowledge that will enable one to become Love. Love is a matter, a state of the whole bodily Being, that occurs only when we loosen our fearful, love-suffocating grip on our self.
In truth, You and I only Realise the Life Gift we are, the Inherent, tacit, Life-Given Self-Worth we are, in the Full Unconditional Reality of Love… and there I live alone to say another word for Humanity—one that will only come forth and survive in the Unconditional Justice of Love:
May your Unconditional Heart always Outshine the conditional mind.
This is my constant prayer for this one also. This is the Power of Life. It is the work of your own Wonder. We must all Wake up to the unreasonable and unknowable Wonderment of this Existence, of this Life, the Life of You and me. Do this before You impose on anyone how You think they should be, or anything should be.